Realizing

Today I realized that i live in my own world. My friends and family think that we all live in the same world, but they are wrong. Or am I wrong? Whatever the case may be I feel as though I live two lives. To many people I am an athlete who is perfect in every way. But to a select few i am an artist, a free thinker, and a true lover. A person that can connect with people on different levels that even they don't understand. I don't even understand it! Some days I think it is because of my fight with depression and that I am imagining things.But I'm not. My friends and family see me one way, while my 'secret' friends see me another. Sometimes living two lives is difficult, for now I can manage. Sooner or later I will have to face the facts: I am leading two lives. I hide who I really am from those who love me for the person I am not. Random or mundane? Sane or insane? The world may never know what I am, or what to label to give me. To be honest I like being me.